Some days are difficult. So difficult we forget to look to god. We forget to ask him why things are happening. We forget to bow our heads, and say a prayer. Sometimes you will have difficult days, but to get over the difficult days you need to pray. We always need to bow our heads and say a prayer. If we took the time everyday maybe we would get over the storms and have less of them. But if God wants us to have a storm, he knows it is something that we can handle, and that is why we are experiencing them. 

You have the life that God intended you to have. This is the truest thing I have ever heard. We live the life that God wants us to. The things that happen is because God has written them in our story.

I hope everything is going wonderful for my readers. I just wanted a quick moment to remind you about something. Wherever you go, God is already there. He knows what is going to happen to you. He has it all written out. He knows what you are doing, so just remember that. Remember that God loves you and is only looking out for you.

This post is quite honest. We are not promised tomorrow. God can take us at any moment. We have no promises of tomorrow. And this sometimes doesn't seem to click in our heads. Often we pass up moments. We pass up moments to complete tasks and put them off right away. We pass up moments to tell people how much we appreciate them. We pass up moments to study God's word. We pass up moments everyday and part of me thinks that maybe Satan is causing this. So never pass up and opportunity.

One second people say they care about something and the next it might seem like they disappear. And honesty maybe that is the way it is supposed to be. God has a reason for everything that happens. Everything he causes us to go through. Everything that we experience, God has his reason for. So if it seems the someone says they care about you and the next moment they are gone, maybe there is a reason. Maybe there is a reason God has erased them from your story.

Sometimes people are so very cruel. They are not following how God wants them to act. In all honesty they are following Satan and their words should neither hurt us or even matter to us. God is what honestly should matter. God  has a reason for everything that happens to us. Sometimes it is hard to realize this. Sometimes we let peoples words into our minds and hearts and allow Satan to win the game. Honestly peoples words should not hurt us. But sometimes peoples words hit so much harder then they should and we are afraid to admit it. But honestly God forgives you for everything, so why not admit that we let someones words that Satan caused them to say hit our hearts harder than we should. God will forgive you, I promise.

What you put up with is what you will end up with. You can only expect the things that you accept in your life.

We pay so much attention to our reflections in the mirror. We complain about the way that we look, and spend so much time looking at ourselves in the mirror. We look at our reflection in the mirrors as we change, as we brush our teeth, as we wash our faces, as ladies put their make up on, and as we brush our hair. We spend much of our time looking at our reflection and I just want to remind my audience that a mirror is just a piece of glass. A piece of glass costs nearly nothing compared to what and who we actually are.

Numbing the pain honestly will do nothing for you. It will cause you a temporary fix if anything at all. And Dumbledore is 100% right, if we numb the pain for a while it will only make it worse when it finally begins to be felt by you, and then in the end you will just be hurting worse.

A goal is something amazing, but if you haven't decided on a plan for that goal, how will that goal really happen? We all have goals, and some goals we make never happen because of the fact that we never plan. Plans are something important. They help us prepare for the future. But a goal without a plan is just something you are wishing for. And let's be honest for a moment, can we really complete all of our wishes if we have no plans to make it into a goal?

You decide what mood you have. You decide whether you are happy or whether you are sad. You decide to smile. You decide to frown. Some people, sometimes do not realize that we are the ones in control, they think we have absolutely no  control. In all reality all we have to do is think about. We are the ones who think about whether we are sad. We are the ones to think about whether we are happy. It is all just in our minds.

He is the one writing the story of your life. And some days it might be hard to stop, and remind ourselves that he is the writer of our life. It might be difficult for us to remember and some days we might want to take all the credit. But he is the reason we even walk the earth today. And he will be the to finish our stories. He started them and he will be the one to finish them. Also take a moment to read Philippians Chapter 1. I think I will.

Keeping tracks of the mistakes we've made isn't doing anything. Its only hurting you in the end. You just need to realize for a moment it is time to forgive yourself.

God is the one that is making things happen for you. Sometimes it might be hard to admit it, because sometimes we all think that it is us and only us, making things happen for us. Even when we don't see it. Admit it, we almost never see it. Even if we don't feel it, he is still the one making things happen for us. Sometimes it might be evident but take a moment and realize god is answering your prayers. This is why things happen for us.  Just have a little faith. Grow a little. Christian Challenge last night was just what I needed. I hadn't been to church in three weeks, church of any kind. So to hear God's word last night honestly made life just a little bit better.

I am stronger because I needed to be. Someone hurt me and I didn't like the way it caused me to feel. So from that moment I decided I needed to be stronger. I'm smarter because of my past mistakes. And honestly I know that we all make mistakes but some mistakes I cannot seem to forgive myself for. So the only way I could of even think about recovering from my previous mistakes was to be smarter.  I'm happier because of the sadness I've known. At times its caused me to realize that life is not always bad. Because I know what it has felt like being sad has caused me to want to be happy.  Now I am wiser because I have learned various things. And in all reality learning is what makes us stronger, smarter, happier, and wiser.

It is true at times it makes me sick to think about how easily you tickled my sides. You are the reason the ticklish side of me left, and hasn't returned. It makes me sick to think that you tricked me so easily. You made me feel like you actually cared about me. That I mattered to you. What if you are not the only one? What if every person I have ever met has been doing this to me. What if I can never trust anyone again? It would be all because of you.

This is very true. Although I love scary movies, they are always in creepy places. Why not do one in a location where everyone is familiar. Why not Walmart? I work for walmart, and sometimes it's a creepy place.

This was my childhood. Just a little early throw back action. Enjoy!

Sometimes our fears seem to be so big. Big enough to touch the sky. Big enough to fill up an entire swimming pool. Big enough to crush us. But sometimes you need to let your fears shrink. Your faith sometimes may seem so very small but in the end we need to let our faith grow and our fears shrink. Our faith is quite important and our fears really shouldn't matter. We need to let things go sometimes. Our passion should always be bigger than our fears.

The idea of being in love is such a good thought sometimes. The concept of love is just a beautiful idea. Two minds can just begin getting along oh so well. It's a magical feeling. Many just fall in love with the idea of being in love.

Many people will tell you that the sky is the limit, that you can't outreach the sky. But really think for a moment. No one can touch the sky, except the astronauts. And in all reality even they can't really touch the sky. I know that this means that there are no limits for us to experience. So in all reality our limits are set in our mind. It depends if we tell ourselves. We can do this. Our mind is the limit. So think you can do something. And you shall be the one succeeding next time.

This is true. I do have a million and thousand ways to feel happy and be happy. I live a very blessed life. Not just today, but everyday. But in all reality it is true for you too. Sometimes we just need to stop and take a moment to think about something happy. Think about our blessings. Realize sometimes when life feels rough, you just need to remember life is not so bad. Yesterday was a very stressful day for me, but never did I once take a moment and stop and think what are the reasons I should be happy today? What are my blessings? I feel if I would of stopped and just taken a moment or a second to think what makes me happy, or what are my blessings it might have gotten just a wee bit better. 

Do not doubt how far you can go. Set your wishes and goals high, and your dreams even higher. You can accomplish whatever you want to. Remind yourself how many obstacles you have climbed.  Remind yourself you are capable of the moon if you wanted to be.  Remember everything you have faced, battles you have accomplished. Trust me we all have some issues. And remember everyone has fears too.

We all have a journey. We all have came a very far way. Traveled many seconds, many moments, many hours, many days, many weeks, many months, many years. But what we need to do is remember how far we have gone not just how much further we have to go. You are not where you want to be but you are also not where you used to be. Everyday is a new adventure.

Ladies... (And maybe even GENTLEMEN): Please do something for me. Yes ME!!!! Respect yourselves. Let me go ahead and repeat myself... RESPECT YOURSELVES. If you can't take a moment and respect yourself how can some girl (or guy) do that for you. If you cannot respect yourself then how can someone respect you more then you respect yourself. We should respect ourselves more than others. The world sees you how you see yourself. If you don't stand up for yourself, better be ready to keep tumbling down.

You honestly can be absolutely anything in this entire world. It's true. So why not just be kind someone is kind, all that matters is you are kind.  Being kind is something that people of today's world need to learn. Just take a moment and be kind to others.

Sometimes you just need to not think. Close your eyes and clear your mind. Sometimes you just need to stop wondering, stop imagining, stop obsessing.  You need to breathe. Have faith. Realize everything works out for the best. Sometimes you just need to take a moment and realize.

Knowledge Dropped

Hey guys and gals, you want a moment of truth? Good, because I was going to tell you anyways. You will always be too much of something for someone. No matter what you think, and no matter what they say. Someone is always going to believe you are too much of something. But stop caring. Give up. It doesn't matter. What you need to do is be yourself anyway. Because your opinion of yourself is what actually matters the most.

Dory gives some wonderful advice in Disney's Finding Nemo. Sometimes life is going to pull you down it seems. Sometimes life will be rough and might drive you nuts. Then you just need to pick your self up, and not care about what just happened. You need to just let it go. Keep on swimming with your day!

Some days I feel this way. I don't know if it was our friendship that caused me to love you. And you don't hate me now, but since we broke up I barely hear from you. You went from being my best friend, someone I talked to daily, to someone I barely hear from.  I remember what you said after me and you finally broke up. But the words you spoke never made too much sense to me. You weren't there entirely by my side because you were involved in military life. But one moment you were there always messaging me being a support system and then you weren't there any longer. No longer someone to support me. You had my heart and I had your heart. We called it love so i stuck around. Maybe I stuck around for too long maybe not long enough. But I honestly never will forget the way you made my heart race. Made me feel like someday's I was your everything. I will never forget the way you made me feel the moment we broke up and called it quits.

They might not love you the way you want them too. It is understandable. It is life. You do not love everyone the way they love you or want you to love them.  But they love you with all they have. They love you as much as they can love you. Sometimes we need to stop and remind ourselves of that.

I know I have not posted in quite some time. It has been hard with school and work. But tonight I post. Not only because I want to. But today has a little more meaning. September 1st... Today is one year since a friend of mine committed suicide.  Not a day goes by where I don't stop and think, man I wish we would have gotten closer. Been better friends. He always complimented my poetry skills. My writing ability. Always encouraged me to write. So here I am taking a moment to write. And since he was always the one to encourage me to write. I will continue to blog. Start updating more.  And because he is always the one that encouraged. I will start today, one year after his death. RIP Ian... We miss you and love you.

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ALS is something that is happening more and more everyday so to see everyone doing this ALS challenge warms my heart. If you would of asked me almost five years ago if I knew what ALS was I would have looked at you puzzled. But then my grandpa was diagnosed with it. I suddenly knew about a disease I never wanted to hear about. Basically motor neurons begin failing and it slowly begins paralyzing you. You lose the ability to walk, talk, eat, and breathe. It usually gives you 2-5 years to live after being diagnosed. 

Tonight some students At Emporia State University did the ALS Ice Bucket Challenge. I made a point to hug everyone that did it if I knew them or not. ALS has personally been involved in my family's life. So to see people spreading the word about it made me feel so much appreciation. But for random people on my campus to hug me again after I told them how it has involved my family just makes me realize how wonderful Emporia State and it's people really are. #ALSFOUNDATION #ICEBUCKETCHALLENGE#EMPORIASTATEUNIVERSITY #STINGERSUP

So tonight we had no homework and it was too hot to do anything outside. So my roommate and I made something pretty cool. We did crayon melted art. We even added glitter!!! But this also has my blog URL on it! 

These were a few of my thoughts on my way to and home from work tonight.

Thought Number 1:

DO NOT LEAVE YOUR KIDS IN THE CAR. I did a little experiment tonight. I tried driving to work with out my windows rolled down. I have absolutely no air conditioning in my car. NONE at all.  I couldn't even make it to work with them up. I live ten minutes away from where I work. TEN WHOLE MINUTES. I honestly could not even make it a block. IT is just too hot. It's in the 90's but with windows up and the sun beating down on your car it's honestly hotter than that. And if i can not handle ten minutes. Me a grown 20 year old woman can not handle it. How can a child. A two year old. A baby. So please do not leave them in the hot car. Unbuckle them, take them in with you. Do not leave them in the car for even a second to run in somewhere. Even if the air is running just do not do it. Take the kids inside. Too many kids are dying from being left in hot cars. Please save a life.

Thought Number 2:
If you are going to walk your dog in the street due to not having a sidewalk. Please walk with them being next to the curb. Protect your beloved pets. Protect them from cars. A person is a lot more likely to see you than a dog. Just protect your dog.

Thought Number 3:
If you are going to walk at night. Please wear something other than black. Even if you are under the brightest street lights please wear a color that can be seen. Anything than black.

I make mistakes. I am human. Everyone in this entire world makes mistakes. Some are small and some are huge. But we all make mistakes. It's what I do. I speak without thinking. It happens to everyone. So next time think before you speak. I act without knowing. Trust me you do to. I don't drink so much that I can barely walk, that's not me. But I am a fantastic lover. And an amazing friend to so many. Trust me God knows I mean well.

Today won't occur it again. You can't go to sleep wake up and it be another today. It never will be just the same. So make it amazing. Make everyday something amazing. Be a blessing in someones life. Be a friend. Encourage someone no matter what it takes. Take time to care about something, about someone. Let your words heal someone not wound them. Take a moment and think before you speak because you never want to be a wound to someones heart.

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This is pretty funny

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My #SOCANU was picked for the socanu website. I just want everyone to know whatever you do believe in yourself. Study study study and you can do anything!

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This parody amazes me. I want my dad to be this way. I want my future dude to know my father way before he asks my father for permission. I want my future dude to have my fathers permission to marry me. Call me old school but it's true. I will not run off with a guy. I want someone to have me for the rest of their life. But they need to do more than just cook burgers for fast food. They need to be out of their mothers basements. He's not being rude. He is doing his job, and protecting me. He is trying to give me what I deserve. So just a reminder to everyone out there. Ask their father for permission. Know their father way before you ask approval to ask for their hand.

The great writer John Green (writer of The Fault in Our Stars) is right when it comes to this quote. YOU are helpful. Do not let anyone ever tell you differently. No matter what you do you honestly are helping someone. Everyday I have someone come through my line with young children they continuously let them help and encourage them. They thank them for helping. But why as soon as we grow up we aren't thanked for helping. We are not encouraged.  Not encouraged to help in our community's. Help. Help people, help groups, help our community's, help our world. You are loved. Your parent's love you, your friends love you. People love you. Remember that. You are loved. You are forgiven. Things happen. We make mistakes. Life goes on. Forgive yourself because often you have already been forgiven. And last you are not alone. People care for you. People are there for you. You are never alone. You will always have me anytime you need me.

God gives us people and the things we need. Not the things and people we want. He gives us things that will help us, and hurt us. People that will leave us and love us. He makes us who we are meant to be. Sometimes we forget that people won't always like us. People that we want to like us often won't because they are not the people that we need. People are going to hurt us, it's life. Someone always will love you. And you are meant to be the way you are.

I wonder if when you hear my name, your eyes just light up, and a smile appears across your face. I wonder if I constantly cross your mind. Oh i wonder if you still crave to hold me. I wonder if you write my name and hearts surround it. Or when you see a shooting star you wish for me. Or you think of me before you fall asleep. I wonder if you don't think of me at all, and my name no longer holds meaning to you. And you sleep with no thoughts. Maybe i'm never on your mind anymore. But trust me when i wake up at three am your name appears in my mind. And thoughts of you fill my head throughout the day

Maybe there is a reason why you forgot about me. Maybe it's because I was never okay to you. Or that my hair was always a mess. Maybe its because my eyes always seemed heavy. Or my thoughts were jumbled up. Or other people interested you. And maybe you didn't know what to do. Maybe i cared too much. Maybe i still care. way too much. But I know how it feels to be forgotten and it really does hurt. 

You either like me or you don't. You either like my blog or you don't. You can like me, you can hate me.  It doesn't matter to me. It has taken me 20 something years to learn this. To learn how to love myself. I really don't need to take any time at all to convince it to you or someone else.

I dare you. To wear no make up. Nothing. No eye liner. No mascara. No eyeshadow. No foundation. No blush. No lipstick. Absolutely nothing. If I can do it. So can you. I do it everyday. The only time I wear makeup, is if I'm going out. And not always even then. I've worn it to dances, and photoshoots. That's really it. And possibly induction and graduation. But other than that. Never.

I dare you. To bake. Brownies. Cookies. Cake. Anything. And eat it. I do this so often. Baking is one of the things I love to do.

I dare you to tell someone how you actually feel. Don't bottle it up. Speak what's on your mind and let them hear it. Trust me more pain comes from bottling things up.

I dare you to laugh. Laugh hysterically. Laugh until it hurts.  Laugh and laugh. Laughter is actually one of the best medicines.

I dare you to not worry if you look stupid. Have fun. Let go. Don't worry about every small detail. It's taken me years to understand this. But I'm finally learning.

I dare you to run around a field. With your friends. Scream. Laugh. Have fun.

I dare you to cry. If you need to just do it. Cry.

I dare you to kiss your crush. Randomly whats the worst that can happen. lol you get punched in the face XD

I dare you to speak your mind in class. Let it be heard. If you don't understand something say it. If you don't believe something say it.

I dare you to be 100% you!

We are all worth something. Something MAJOR. But the way we let people walk all over us. Is just plain terrible. We let people act like we are nothing. That we aren't worth anything. We let other people treat others that way. We don't stand up and stop them, we let them hurt others. Why do we do this? Why don't we take the stand and stop bullying. If you can learn how much you are worth. You will someday realize that everyone is worth as much as you. You will stop letting others step on you and walking all over others too.

Some of my closer friends know recently I went through a break up. And though some moments it still effects me. I'm living in the future and not the past. I am happy. Oh so very happy. And really in all reality I wouldn't change anything.

We are all human. Its okay to have a melt down every now and then.  We just can't live there in that moment. We need to cry, get over it and then focus on where we are headed next

Confidence isn't walking into a room with your nose in the air. That is not confidence at all. It is not thinking you are better than everyone else. That is just plain rude. We all come from different areas, different community's. We were all raised differently. And our stories don't match up with anyone else. Confidence is walking into a room and not comparing yourself to anyone else. Realizing we are different.  

It's a while since I've posted and I'm sorry for that. I was going through a few things where I didn't have time to really think about my blog, and my dreams, and my passion for writing. But I am back now and better than ever and I promise to blog more. Thank you to the people who continuously check my blog. But please take time and follow it. It has had over 500 views since I have started it.

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This is adorable. My dad used to take me to father daughter dances that our community put on. I used to get a new dress and shoes that fit the theme. And those memories I hold on to FOREVER. Something tells me she will too.








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I'm the girl who loves being called pretty though I don't always believe it.  I'm not right all the time, but I hate admitting that I'm wrong. I don't always smile the real smile. I can be read like an open book, but hide so many things. I work hard, but don't always get what i deserve.

This statement is truer than true. You can keep going. Its possible. More possible than you think because you will keep going even after you think you can't anymore.